Keiden still naps in the afternoons… When we’re at El Jordan, he sleeps on a mattress in my office… and if I am going to be teaching or working nearby, I close the door, jamming a rag between the door and the frame so it won’t slam… If I’m going to be downstairs, the door stays wide open so Keiden is free to go directly downstairs to the daycare program… Usually, I hear, “Mommy!!!!!!!”… but the other day, out of the blue, I heard him start to scream in fear…
I ran into my office to see what was wrong… Tears overflowing, he said, “I couldn’t open (snif, snif) the door.”
“But, sweetheart!!! I was right here!!! All you had to do was call Mommy and I’d come and open the door!!” A little light went on in his head, as if he had forgotten that fact, “Oh yahh!”
It made me think… how often when we don’t know what to do or something is beyond our control, are we are overcome by worry… paralyzed by our fears? And our Heavenly Father kindly speaks, “But dear child! I was right here… all you had to do was call…”
Hmmm… How many times do we have to learn the same lesson, over and over again?
Abraham, our administrator at El Jordan for 8 years, is no longer at El Jordan…. Two new interim people are filling his spot (in the morning Alexandra as an accountant…she will start next Monday) and Fabiola (in the afternoons as the administrator)… Our prayer is to have a full time administrator by the end of the year… with a heart for ministry… and specifically the needy… yet coupled with firm character… Where are we going to find the right person as administrator? Have we been making the right decisions? How are the new ladies going to fit in? I start to freeze up… and then I remember Keiden on the other side of the door… just needing to call…
The situation of the sexual abuse case causes a lot of questions as well…. Will the truth be clear in the end? Some of the girls have asked to come to El Jordan for a Bible Study… Will that cause hard feelings for some people? There is another hearing this afternoon… How will everything all turn out? Will the judge be impartial? Fears grow inside… and I have to remember our Heavenly Father… waiting for us… to wait on HIM…
Our men’s workshops… how can we develop a strong, united team? How can we encourage men to come? Will Marco be able to keep strong, encouraged with all the different discouragements? God… help!!!
Some of our “girls” with severe medical problems… Kids with serious emotional problems from everything they have seen and lived through… (Little 6 year old José Armando wishing his mom had killed him when he was a baby… wanting to end his life...) Some of our families who sometimes don’t have a place to live… or don’t know how to provide for the basic necessities… So many needs… how can I help? What can I do? We aren’t prepared to deal with these situations… “Dear Child… Bring them to Me…”
Me a mom… Do I have the strength, wisdom to raise my kids in a Godly way? Will I be able to balance responsibilities at El Jordan with responsibilities at home? Why do I have patience for other people’s problems and then lose patience with my own kids at home? The fears make me want to seize up… worry… and wonder… Lord… I need You… because I can’t do it on my own…
Thank you for reminding me of that God… help me to always cast my cares on You…
Corina…
***Just a little P.S. Please pray for the hearing this afternoon… again, that anything that isn’t true (on either “side” or in the authorities) may be stopped… and that Truth would reign… THANK YOU….